Aahhhh, the weekend. Makes me so happy. So much promise, so many expectations, so many unknowns. I made a new mix, which is always exciting, and gave it a nifty name, which is also exciting. Finished first week of classes, and I have like the same classes every day of the week, which I kinda like, so there are not as many surprises, as I don't have to get out of autopilot when walking to classes. Which is very helpful, especially considering that I have to be checking out the men folk as I walk. Because it is my job. Someone today was like, I don't know if it's because it is spring or whatever, but there seems to be so maybe prettyy boys out all of the sudden. Time for love. Whatever. Love makes me kinda sick. I know that once I am actually in love some day, I probably will not think love is a nauseating thing, but as of now, I want to throw up when I see people all lovey dovey. I am a cynical bitch to the end. You know that some day I will be swept off my feet with the most perfect boy, and I love men, but like boyfriends who like bring their girlfriends flowers and say nice things, well, this is a foreign thing. And foreign things can be scary. I want love, but it's impossible. No, I want love, and know that love will come, and I want to be in love, but right now, love stinks. This is not a single girl rant, though; this is a conversation that actually stems from like 10th grade with Michael Knoll, when he would see these two kids making out every day and complain about it. Aaaahhh, good times, 10th grade. But I am so happy to be in my life right here, right now, to not have to be in the middle of my teenage years anymore, and to be on the brick of so many many things. So much still left to try and see and do. That is one of the greatest things in the world. To be on the edge and have so many opprotunities and have the power to chose how to live my life. These are the times I will look back on and say that was the time of my life.
Megan, who would you be if you did not think of other people as much?
Thank you so much for these words, Shaun, and I hope that with guidance from wonderful friends like you, I can learn to find out.